Sunday, July 30, 2006

Hai, my birthday is coming near, i thought i would be happy, but guess well, it was never meant to be?

To her: i guess..well I have some explantion to do. About alot of things, ya...but just 2 of the main reason. Well, i guess the first and foremost thing on your mind will be why i did not tell u? its not that i didnt want to let u know or rather is that i sort of know how the answer will come about. I mean i can feel how is it that you feel and i knew the answer like 2 months ago? Also i knew that i may never see u again so thats something that i didnt want to happen at all. I guess now that u asked me first, i couldnt say no..then ya. thats that i suppose.

Secondly will be why i fallen for u? Well, i guess its just that u make me feel very me whenever im aroud or chatting with u. I mean i guess i can just be myself and dont have to be somebody that i am not. Everytime when i chat or talk with you i feel very happy, thats this undescribe feeling that i feel but just words cant explain it alone. Spending time with u is very simple in both the word and real sense. I guess u bring simplicity into my life, something that i have not known existed in this world, like i can do any normal things and just be happy, which is the most important thing.

Hai, thats my post for today, had alot of crying done...i hope it will be over soon, but i dont think so. Thoughts of u still cross my mind every now and then, the past few nights of you in my dreams.

Why is loving someone so painful? its because u know that there will never be another person like the one u love. Sure u can move on and find some other girl to fall in love with, but the new person cant take the place/character/personality of the one that u used to loved in your heart. No 2 person can be the same so even if u fall in love with some other person, the qualities are just not the same. And for that u will always be a special person in my heart.

Argument with my mom just now over my uncle's van which i borrowed last night which had a scratch and dent which i may have to pay for it. My church friends who alot of them last minute tell me they cannot come for my birthday dinner tonight. Dont think will be able to go out and celebrate her birthday with her or maybe ever see her again. This is such a sadden week...hai...wadever lar....2 more days my birthday, this is my life right now and at this moment, heartbroken and depressed....

Happy Birthday Daryl....

Sunday, July 23, 2006

I cant stand the distance. I miss u so much and just want to be at your side.

Time passes by quite fast during my holidays

Thurs

Meet up with big sam and jasmine in the evening for dinner and movie, long time have not seen big sam liao, at least nearly more then 1.5years, haha..glad to see him =)Watched "hoodwinked" some kind of red riding hood cartoon movie, haha..super lame and funny lar, but not recommended to watch, lol! After that big sam went home caused he had uni camp the next day then jas and i met small sam to eat at senpang bedok. Chill for awhile then headed home.

Friday

Went out with my jie jie at night!! haha, another road trip, this time much more fun caused took alot of pix! but cant post any of the pix up now as the camera which gino lent me and the photos are with him, so ya, waiting for the photos then can post it up on my blog =) We drove around singapore lor, went to changi village to eat chicken wing and had ice dessert, then off to commando camp to send my jie's bf back. After that wanted to drop by dawn's work place and visit her, drove there then founded out she left liao, Hai! buts its alright, there will be another time i guess? haha..Then headed down geylang to eat some dim sum, after that picked up my jie's friend at bukit batok went to west coast to take alot of pix and chill at the playground. Super nice lor, must bring my friends there, im sure they will like it, haha..after that around 4am super tired send jie's friend home, drove myself home then jie drove herself back, a lovely day indeed! going out with my jie always very lovely! so glad to have her in my life, hee! =)

Saturday

Woke up at 4pm caused the night before slept super late (or rather early) Went to meet my relative eat pizza hut then headed down to bugis to collect my o2, glad its ok! =P Then went to buy SHE - Forever Cd..now listening to it, love it =) Headed down to siglap starbucks and waited for gino to finished work then we all went home.

Now just slacking around lor, hai..i feel kinda sad at this moment even though my days are filled with fun. Hai, i wish there is a way out of this misery for me but i know that i have to faced it, be it good or bad.

I really wish u are here with me so that i can be contented. Wherever u are and however u feel about me...just know that I really miss u alot.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Hey hey! out of camp for 10 days!! woohoo! Heres my update so far...

TUESDAY

Woke up around 11, did not do anything much then just have lunch with my dad, hang around at home till 5+ then went down to meet Irene for dinner. Had KR @ Marina Square, after that went to candy empire(again) to just look see caused Irene wanted to go, lol!! Then decided to chill at starbucks, had a great time chatting with her! catching up with each other and all! aww Irene! hahahaha!!! What can i say? im such a nice guy =P BHB!

MONDAY

Today was supposed to be a quiet day with just dinner at night with angela to celebrate her belated birthday, lol! but in the end woke up in the morning to the sound of my phone ringing to find out that gilian was bored and had nothing to do so i met her at city hall to just basically kill time and hang around =)

Went to eat soup spoon for my lunch and guess who i came across?? Irene!!! can u believe it? (my church friend who disappeared to mars!, haha..ok, aust) ya! saw her with serene (another church friend) chatted for awhile then they left but met up again unfortunately *wink! at Ben & Jerry's. Sat around and chatted for awhile more before heading off with gil to candy empire to buy some sweets. Gil said she wanted to do something different so i decided to get her to play pool for her time, lol! went down to cine to play pool after i headed to kino to get angela's present =)

GiL was good! haha, ok lar..better then me when i first started playing pool! almost won me by 1 ball! but alas! it was not meant to be, lol! =P Out of 4 rounds i won all! *clap clap ...haha!!

After that headed down to J8 to meet angela for sakae sushi! just look @ the pix! she made me eat so much =( think now i put on like another 5kg? hah! thanks girl! *sob ..haha! had fun lar, and glad she enjoyed the food! and would u believe it! I had my first picture taken with her!! after 5 years of friendship?? I've never had a picture with her before..finally siaz! thought singapore was going to snow right then! LOl!! =P *I hope many more to come! whahaha!!

Should have more pix, but oh well, heres are those that i took and have anyhow, enjoy!


Piggies having buffet! lol! =P


So Much Food how to finish?????


Finally done! whew~!


First ever pix~!!


giL Outside K Pool


GiL Playing pool???


giL & Me =)

Monday, July 10, 2006

Yoz

World cup has finally come to an end! and first time i betted in my life, lol! bet a total of 5 matches, won 3/5 of them, but overall i think still lost $687, sigh, caused of the equalizer in the finals, yup, betted france to win, but oh well, u win some u lose some =) So till another 4 years before im gona bet again, haha!

Had loads of fun going out the pass few days, watching world cup, going midnight cycling with gino all the way to pasir ris to watch world cup? we all siao huh? haha..but nevermind lar, it was fun! met dawn after her work @ pasir ris to watch and eat supper..fun but super super tiring, yup.

Change my blog song liao, nice? actually i had this song a very long time ago but dont know where it went so i finally found someone who has it, then he pass it to me, haha, happy! I'm sure most of u guys would have heard it before, so ya =)

Anyhow i change this song is because i wanted to let the girl that i like know that she means alot to me. ya. This song is dedicated to her =) I'm not sure if she comes to my blog that often, but ya i guess she does come now and then, so at least if i ever get around to telling her 1 day, she wont be that shocked or something *i hope anyway* To that girl: Just want a chance to show u how much i care, even though i may not be there everytime caused im in NS, but i hope that I'll get a chance to be able to be with u caused u showed me that love still exist in this world and its been a very very long time since i was able to believe in love once again. I know u've been hurt before, so have i and i know it may be hard for u to believe just as i did, but just wanted u to know that its possible and that i've fallen for u. I promise u I'll never hurt u caused thats the last thing in the world that i want to do. Take care of yourself and hope to see u soon :)

Hmm, there..i think i said quite alot, oh well..must fight for what u believe in =) thanks to all those people out there! sigh, gotta go back camp, oh well, im *crossing fingers* that im gona be out on thursday! Take care people!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Hi people!

Haha, am at my aunty place, nights out so ya, thats why im like so free? haha..ok lar..friday book out! cant wait siaz, then it will be for a difficult time i think? France better win tonight! or else dont know what to say about this world cup, seriously not the teams i expected to get into the semi-finials/finals..yup =)

Was reading my friend's blog and came across something, that when love is involved, anything can happen, even after so long, she is still able to get involved. Am very happy to see that this kind of love is still avaible in the world, and i hope she will be ok, yup. But rather on my side, i dont even know how to let the news be broken to, just hope that the love i have for you will be able to overcome anything that may stand in my way, hope to find my courage to let u know, yup..jia you daryl!

Till then!

Monday, July 03, 2006

hey hey!

ok ok, i know its like 2 weeks since i last updated? sorry..not that i did not have time but just slipped my mind, ya. a deep and sincerely apology to all those who regularly come and check it out, well, its updated now =)

Last week i'll just recap briefly, last friday came home quite early caused got early book out so just came home chill and watch the OC which i rented on dvds @ video ezy..haha, nearly finished except for a few more which i need to go back and borrow it 1 more time. Sat went to cut my hair then met parents at Fullerton for their belated anniversary dinner. Ate at town restaurant which had a seafood buffet, nice nice, yup. price ard 48+++ per pax but overall an enjoyable dinner then headed down to meet gino for superman returns, actually did not want to watch caused it was at 1.40am but 1 of his friend could not make it so just go lor, or else the ticket wasted. yup =)

So now back at home, yes i book out caused i have a medical appointment tomorrrow. A CT scan..can u guys believe it? lol! wonder whats wrong with me? well, i know im alright caused im blessed! haha! =P

Hmm, lately i've been thinking alot, i dont really know what to do, just that i hope everything will turn out fine, some of u guys may know what im talking about, some may not, but well, its coming to the end of the tunnel and i feel like i have to let u know how i feel, u may or may not know but thats a totally differnt thing. Whether or not its gona work, well, i'll just pray that i'll have this chance and that i really cherish u alot.

Goodnight peeps!