This I Promise You

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

With All I Am

Into Your hand, i commit again. All i am, for you, Lord. You hold my world, in the palm of your hand. And i am Yours, forever, Jesus, I believe in you, Jesus, I belong to you, you're the reason that i live, the reason that i sing, with all i am. I'll walk with You, wherever You go. Through tears and joy. I'll trust in you. And i will live, in all of Your ways and Your promise, forever, I will worship, I will worship You.

A song that im listening to right now from the new hillsongs music cd..yea..i know he knows how much i loved you, and how much more that im still loving u, all through this time...and it may be so for a long time to come. I hope he knows how much i cherish u..even when i dont do anything to make it show.

Anyway, my b'day 5 more days but i celebrating very early, cause i have 5 groups to celebrate with..yea..i dont know what i will be doing, but i'll post it as soon as i know k, everybody's invited..please do come, if u all can make it...yea

Im sorry if i have made people who have read the last post sad..or hurt or whatever, it was not my intention to make u people like this, just that that night i dont know what came over me...i still love all of you...even people who dosent show me any care at all...i love u guys..k... update on my b'day soon k..till then..

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 8:53 PM.

Monday, July 26, 2004

LOOK here! its so fucking annoying when people treats u like they want to use u, im FUCKING MEAN it! ok...im STRESSING THAT this NOT 1 or 2 people..its not only to my CLOSE FRENS, its ALSO TO THE NOT CLOSE FRENS..its like the whole world..u all got a problem with me? for what the hell for? what did i ever do to deserve this huh??? bloody hell! i darn ass hate it when people treat u like they want to use u..what the hell?? look, i treat all my frens close and non-close alike ok..u have a problem, u come to me and i'll help u out with it..all that i want is to make my frens happy ok..but when u are like alone and stuff..the whole world seems to go out of your life, nobody to msg saying"hi, how are you" and stuff like that...just a simple msg or a call asking whether u are alrite...NO! people have to disappear all of a sudden, and its like damn fucking annoying!! i repeat!! fucking annoying!! i try to help all of u people who needs my help or just to help anybody make their life happier and what do i get in return ? people hell avoiding me like im not even on earth, much less in singapore or whatsoever.. DO YOU THINK I GIVE THE HELL WHAT YOU THINK?????!!!!!!! DO YOU????!!!!!!

This is is fucking pissing annoying mood ok? u all dun care about me? fine!!! so bloody be it! you think im here entertaining all of u people...even my close frens can forget me! what the hell!?!? go on everybody, be piss at me. why dont you! very happy right? feels damn fucking good to be like that right? do anybody ever cares how i feel ???? or what im going through?! this itself is UTTER COMPLETELY BULLSHIT! its bad enough that im here, all alone, writing this SHIT POST and all you people are in bed dreaming on whatever dreams that may be happening!

Look here,im not gona be an asshole here ok ? if you guys dont want to read this, then to hell with u guys!!! i had enough of this shit already! u all wanna treat me like dirt, like somebody who is not here, u all feel good when people helps u in times of need or make u feel happier..what the fucking hell?!?! i dont expect people to show concern on me or do whatever.. u all can go on your life likes nothing ever happen. pretended i never even publish this post!! who the hell is gona care for me after all that i done for everybody!!? i always like to help people whenever they need help or even just lent my support, and I DONT EXPECT ANYTHING IN RETURN!! but do anybody have the courtesy to show your friendship to me?? close people that i have not seen for like 1 month or so choose to ignore me, fine go ahead..look, u all dont even have to remember me anymore ok? so be it! i prefer to be fucking alone then to be used by frens who use me only just because i dont know for whatever the hell reasons that u have!

Im like mostly happy all the time, but there is a few times like this when u do NOT CROSS ME!! im NOT the fun,dazzle amusment park that u can go on rides whenever u feel like it, im a HUMAN, not a darn ROBOT and i've got feelings TOO!! im EXACTLY like anybody else who feels lonely, not wanted, sad, happy, joyful ! everything darn thing that u feel i do too!!! i will definetly gurantee that if u try crossing me, u'll have hell to pay for!!! dont expect merry cherrful things after all that u people done for me! cause when i've come to this stage..nothing in the world matters anything to me!! u want hell? i'll give u hell!! u choose the wrong guy to mess with ok !?! n im in a damn unhappy mood as all of u people can see!!! dont play with me!!

[P.S] THIS IS FOR EVERYBODY!!! NOT A PARTICULAR PERSON!

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 5:20 AM.

this post is for yesterday: the 25th of july..yea..

well, nothing much happen, went to church..after that went to bk at tam to eat with jie and nat..turns out jie was angry with nat..yea..was kinda sad seeing them quarreling and all..but after for a while after she left, then nat went after her..then ok liao..kind happy for them, makes me think there is still some love left in this world.yea

Went to the F.I.R session at west mall..yea,very far..but dunno lor..just sudden urge to feel like going, so go lor..the guy looks the same, only the girl is different..yea..dunno why also..

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 5:16 AM.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

whew, tired, just came home from lido, watch i,robot with my frens..haha..2 of them, those that were quite close to me last time, no try to get back the close friendship =) i must say i,robot is quite nice, kinda co0l, its something like minority report, if u guys have seen it u will know what i mean..yea, not too bad, action is ok..of course it could be better, but overall quite good movie..yea

Anyway, whats been happening lately in my life? nothing..haha, sad right? just been studying and studying, its becoming a daily routine..kinda boring if u ask me..really miss those nice adventures last time..sigh =(

oh well, jam! i hope u are ok k ? i know its tough for u, but u gotta hang in there!!! we are all here for u..everybody in singapore.. =) kk, i'll pen here now...wait update someother time!

[P.S my b'dae only 8 days away..haha]

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 1:43 AM.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

yup yup! updated my blog again! finally, after the virus, it seems to be gone for now =) anyway, updated my wishlist, more coming soon as my b'dae draws near! haha..so all you guys who dunno what to get for me can see, but im not expecting anything big or much lar..jus a nice sms wishing me a happy birthday will do, hehe =P

yea, gona update my wishlist for more items, things that i wanna get but somehow didnt manage to get..lol...erm, i dont know what to do on my b'dae, any people with any ideas out there? i wanna celebrate with a few people only..not a very big occassion as i just feel like this time my b'dae not really big anymore..things definetly have change..sigh..but those of you who wanna celebrate my b'dae are welcome ok, come by all means if u all can make it..heh! haha..kk..will update on my b'dae celebrations soon, by next week to let u guys know what im gona do =)

oh well..bought a new hillsongs cd, very nice i must say, haha..soothing, can do work and listen to it at the same time..yup yup. Will update later, or another time if my virus comp allows it..haha, take care people!

A outside look does not mean the inside look will be the same; even if times changes everything

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 2:06 PM.

Monday, July 19, 2004

hi hi !! finally can post something, my comp is crazy with all the stupid darn viruses in them, hope i can get to change my comp soon *cross fingers and toes* haha, anyway, my frens came..whoa! super fun, played ps2 at 5.30am, went to play bball before sunset at NIE, haha, we all both very lousy already cause have not been playing for like 1yr for me and 3 months for my fren =)

F.I.R coming down to town this sat/sun!! sat at hard rock cafe and sun at west mall..err, i think sat at hard rock cafe need passes? i dunno..oh well, who wanna go????? please raises your hand and tell me!!! err then again, wrong question to ask, nobody i think right? sigghh..nvm, maybe i juz go on my own, dunno since when i was "on" about chinese group? sigh..

Got other stuff to say, but i'll say it later tonight...take care all!

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 1:49 PM.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

yea! oh well, this is a post for yesterday..14 july..yea, haha, anyway, sat for the chi oral..wah..i think i can get A man! haha, only for the oral k, not the whole paper..cause i was like crapping and after i finished the examiner said "hen hao!"
haha, felt truly blessed. =)

not much happening to me nowadays..comp is full of virus, yuck! hope i can get to change it soon! *cross fingers n toes* my webpage all takes so long to load..like about 15secs? now after i scan n delete some virus its better..but still..u get the idea =(

yea! my 2 best frens coming to my house to stay on friday! haha, cant wait, 1 of them i have not seen it about a year already..we all 3 were very close in primary sch..yea..now kinda strayed off..but we are back =) gona play games, watch dvds, monopoly!! haha..eat supper or maybe even go watch midnite show!! cant wait!!

but no matter what, i still miss u..will always miss u..no matter how happy i am or whatever im doing *hugs*

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 12:10 AM.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

hey, just want to let u know thanks for calling k, it was very sweet of u. u might find this embrassing, but i cried after i talked to u..for about 20mins..yea..i love u..

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 12:16 AM.

Friday, July 09, 2004

hehe ok,update my profile liao, yup yup, there may be some other stuff that i want to add..but that is for later yea =)Why is people so like ignoring me this week? i dont have any idea what i've done, just that people seems to be avoiding me. =( for what i have no idea but i hope that i did not do anything to hurt anybody..everyone seems to be gone..sighh..oh well, got my blog and studies to keep me buzy..till later.nite!

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 12:47 AM.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Its for you *hugs*

kk, updated my blog again, finally huh? hehe..update my movies page, its for the month of july..yea =)my movies will be updated monthly, for the whole month..they are my picks for the movies that suppose to be good, but u never know right? haha..

Im still kinda sick, nv go sch today..sigh..but oh well, i will be well to go tmr! haha, sounding so excited to go sch huh? wonder y..oh well, take care people! cheers!

The promise i made to you
went through my mind again at 4:06 PM.